So I thought I was being brilliant like…three weeks ago. I was all like “Oh hey, you know what would be fun, self?” and then I was like “Taking a week off work and spending every day sleeping and shopping?”. And then I went “Uh yeah, but I meant fun and plausible.” And I was like “Umm…nothing?”

Because I’m a cynic like that.

But no, me was still all “No, really. We should make a blog schedule and do something wacky every day of the week.” And I told me “Uh…schedules blow and you’re incapable of following them.” And me said “No, really. This’ll be easy. We’ll make it free-form and fun. We’ll love it.”

Turns out I lied to myself. I haven’t even posted one post within the schedule because I’m not a structured person. I suppose this proves it, if I didn’t know it already. Not only did I not post within the schedule, but the terror of the schedule kept me from posting anything at all for like *checks calendar* almost two weeks.

So…pretty schedule out the window. I may still do some of the things from the list, but not on set days. Because I’m free-form and slightly insane.

But if I don’t want to blame the lack of posts on my inability to follow even my own rules, I could blame it instead on something much better. Two weeks ago I opened one of my novels and started scanning it. This was following a very unsuccessful attempt to edit a different novel. Really, really fail. I got like a chapter in and hated it.

But anyway, I opened ‘Uriel’s Fall’ (title subject to change based on needing a recognizable angel name that doesn’t sound so masculine), and started reading it and…loved it. I’ve been through the whole thing now, cut out bits that no longer worked, cleaned up my brief obsession with metaphor, and I think it’s tight now.

The problem is…the ending didn’t work any more. I deleted like the last 11k of words and still have to replace them with the new ending. I’ve always known I would have to do this. The old ending was Frankenstein’s monstered together, and I knew it didn’t work. The new ending…hopefully it will work, but I’m not there yet.

But still…I’ve edited 55k of words, I love how it all goes, and once I finish it, I’ll send copies to the sweet people who have offered to read it for me. Two of them have already started, and they rule. The third, a guy from work…

So this is how it went. Guy from work asks me about my writing occasionally. He’s awesome like that. I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I was doing this editing and that two of my critique partners had already offered to read for me. He said “Um…I read.”

And from there it led to him agreeing to read my book. It’s been…15 years since anyone outside a critique group read any of my novels. I’m a little nervous, but excited too. We’ll see how it turns out.

If you were going to name an angel something recognizable, and she had a female form in the story, and you were fed up with the fact that everyone and their dogs names their angelic characters Luc and Gabe (not to mention the fact that Lucifer and Gabriel are different characters already in the series), what would you name her?