I’ve been looking for inspiration. I hit a snag with ‘Uriel’s Fall’, wherein I began to question the sanity of moving in for a fourth or fifth major revision, even though I’ve sworn for the last six months that I’m inspired and know exactly how to fix it and I’ll make it the best story ever yet from inside my skull.

I’ve decided I don’t actually have the answers, at least not formed enough to fix the story. Sorry…’round it out’. So I need a new project to work on. The thing was, I didn’t want to ressurect an old story. I’m tired of all my old stories (I think it’s a form of burnout), and I want a new idea.

But I didn’t have any new ideas so instead I started reading through old stories anyway. I pulled up one I’m really rather fond of, decided I knew exactly how to market it if I ever finished it, and would also self-publish it just to see if it worked, and then started reading. I was working on this story just a few months ago – it’s not like it’s an old piece. The narrative though? Horrid. Not all of it. But my twenty-something trendy executives? All talking like stuffy college professors. I have no clue what posessed me to do that.

And then I started reading something much older. I haven’t touched this one for at least five years. I think. Maybe. The concept there was better. Turns out I created some great (IMO) characters. But once again, the writing was lacking. I cringed and cried a little.

Here’s the thing about both stories, they’re drawn from the same base set of characters. Basically one is they YA version, and the other is where they would be ten years later. So these characters were dancing in my head this morning and I was wondering whose perspective I should tell which story from, and they began to morph. They started to change shape in my mind, and grow and shift and move from being some heavy angsty YA, to something a little older.

And suddenly, I have my new story idea. Oh, hmm…just realized I should have brought my headphones to work so I could listen to music and plot this one out. Fortunately, I do have my trusty, rusty usb drive…(which isn’t actually rusty or it prolly wouldn’t work and I’m fortunate for that because I know I’ve sent it through the wash at least once). And I think today…I’m going to be doing some character exploration.

Don’t think of this as heavy, passionate SNI lust, this is a more subdued kind of attraction. Let’s see where it takes us ^_^

What are you working on?